The day I stopped believing in ghosts
And though my heart never lies
The rush inside flows too slow – sometimes
Still it’s tickling inside
When I watch you walking your dogs
Eat me, throw me down on the floor
And force me into your core
When there’s passion but the precision lacks
There will be chaos
Might bring you luck might bring you pain
No longer do I have to stay away
A messed up heart turns basic instincts into art
Ouch! How the sunshine stings
Turn off that visual noise
Messed up, turned into a thing
I choose not to have a choice
Under the heel of her shoe
Well what can I do?
I’m free from responsibility
And I keep my dignity - intact
When there’s passion but the precision lacks
There will be chaos
Might bring you luck might bring you pain
No longer do I have to stay away
A messed up heart turns basic instincts into art
Wicked woman mature
I bleed when I score
Consume me, steal all my load
Then kick me out in the cold
Life is the most strangest experience
That I ever had
Always searching for kicks
Always regarded as sick
When there’s passion but the precision lacks
There will be chaos
Might bring you luck might bring you pain
No longer do I have to stay away
A messed up heart turns basic instincts into art
By looking at the size of the gap
Between the life you have always dreamt of
And the life you actually live
And Madame Fortune do you think that she’s bothered?
Of course she doesn’t care about me
She’s way too busy with all you others
So I’m not the one I want to be
Pulled a mom and her child out of a car once
The car exploded
I saved their lives
But in the following chaos I got ignored
Got no reward or warmth at all
Therefore I did figure there was lot of credit left on my account
Would take a lifetime for most people to reach that high point of being good
But I could go for average; it wouldn’t be a problem at all
My heart was beating faster when I thought ‘bout all the bad things I could do
Estimate the amount of your kindness
By looking at the love and the hate you think
That you get from all the people around you
All you do is give it back
That thought justified my hunt
For someone I could give all my pain
The lack of serious moral doubts
Permitted me to go insane
Now my efforts are headlines in the papers
So many died
So many cries
And in the following chaos I just vanished
No punishment for me at all
Now I’ve burnt up people and I’ve burnt up all the credit on my account
And I admit I’m in the red now but that is perfectly alright with me
‘cause thanks to prior heroic deeds I’m probably just as bad as you
‘cause you’re shoplifting and cheating on your girlfriend and you never call your mom
And I bet but never win
And the flowers die before I feel their smell
But baby how could I care?
I don’t care
‘cause I’ve decided to walk on by
With my head under my arm
Talking to my heart all the way up to the sky
We laughed and we cried
Laughed and cry
I’m gonna
Steal me some luck
Keep searching for my soul
I catch up fast
Forget all the dreams I had ‘bout rockn’roll
‘cause they won’t last
I’m fed up with questions I have asked myself
‘cause I don’t know
auh auh auh
And I won’t apologize
I will steal some wings to fly
Feel the love of life by dying everyday
A point in crossing the line
There is a point in crossing the line
I’m gonna
Steal me some luck
Keep searching for my soul
I catch up fast
Forget all the dreams I had ‘bout rockn’roll
‘cause they won’t last
I’m fed up with questions I have asked myself
‘cause I don’t know
auh auh auh
Overvaluing the past
And completely forgetting 'bout here and now
But it's the present that counts man
It really makes it all
And now the disease has caught you
Your time is due
Can't find a way to lose the lie
'cause there's no lie it's all about your life
Those spoken words from the doctor
The ugly face of God
The day the world stopped
and turned its back on you
Now there are doors to be knocked on
And there are words to be said
I'm honoured that you spend some time on me
Oh Father such a sneak attack!
Please reconsider and give her future back
Once the tip of the spear, so alive
so full of hopes and dreams
Had been a roll-model for self esteems
Your last TV-dinner comes ever closer
"What kills me if I fall down in a bottomless hole Sir?"
You show up battered and war torn
Like an old tattoo
We could have laughed about it
if the background had looked different
I'm so transparent it's laughable
Like a text-book case
My badly fitting game face makes no sense
Here comes reality and it roars
God is out of favours, Satan scores
And I wish to bleed to death upon your grave
Thanks for these thirteen thousand days
The days we tried to hate the world with style
No you don’t, you don’t speak the truth
When talking easy about the future while you’re smiling
Can’t you see that we all fade away?
And that life in fact is just a sped up slow down
Life is like a soft explosion then
a roller cost ride in slow-motion
And death’s eternity grabbing you roughly and casts you right into a void unknown
Let’s have a chat and drink while dying
Stay up and talk to me all night please
Let us find out how to die with grace
Yes I know, oh of course I know
The stupidity of wasting time by worrying about time
But I just can’t help my sentimental ways
And all the days and faces from the past that pass before my eyes
How they run for every moment
A childs’ request is always urgent
There’s endless youth and the world is new
They haven’t learned to know the truth yet
Then spirit slowly turns to cool
And sparkling eyes once sharp and true
Soon to be buried in a furrowed face
So you run barefoot through the meadows
Or feel that final minor chord strikes
And you’re trembling in front of the judge and trying to count on a God
When our souls are out of season
We really shouldn’t weep or reason
It would be great if we all could say “those days alive were such a blast”
Let’s have a chat and drink while dying
Stay up and talk to me all night please
Let us find out how to die with grace
Taking for granted makes sense
When winners are friends
Got charm, so the ladies went right down his way
Love was obvious in those days
An easy game to play
And the prettiest girl
Stayed in his world
Built a home for two
And before too long came the babble and songs, a wife and three kids ain’t that wrong
Then he began missing his previous life
Another night stayin’ out late
Another slap in her face
All getting worse – in the end they were all scared of him
And he was calling them names
“I can’t bring home any friends” said the kids in their pleas
Christmas is hard
and losing is art
Burned out lucky star
December the 3rd they’d escaped from his world, left a note and a cold shepherd’s pie
Hard times in a sparsely furnished bedsit
An alcoholic indeed
A fading human being
But luck came into his life for the last time
He won the lottery
A Devil’s salary
Jumped on a plane
With a suitcase of pain
The most southerly part of Spain
Became his resort, he tried his best to adore
the town of Puerto del C
Drunk by the pool
With faded tattoos
At Bitacora Club
He tries to end his days in the sun and the haze
with invisible tears in his eyes
He can not ease his pain and he might be you
Can’t understand why everybody tries
A lesser version of themselves when they face everybody else
And I am nothing and I pretend that I don’t care
Maybe the easiest way to handle things I can’t tell or share
But never mind because today I wrote a song about you bitch
And we are all in a grey area when we shout uh! uh!
Just look at me - with such grace I walk the earth
Still it’s brave to be embarrassing and in a way
I really think that what you do is sound and clear
Applause to you
Forgotten heroes hide ashamed behind the moon
Two second darlings deal with words like “now” or “soon”
And given the chance they would gladly suck the golden cock of fame
And we are all in a grey area when we shout uh! uh!
Just look at me – I’ve made a point, I’ll save the world
But I don’t care that you’re pretentious ‘cause we need your type
I would truly say that what you do is sound and clear
Applause to you
Not taking life too seriously can sometimes be quite hard
We are all in a grey area when we shout uh! uh!
Just look at me – the world has been unfair to me
And it’s a statement to put a bullet in your head
I really think that what you do is…….
Yeah you are the one person that I like the most
but every once in a while you can be a real cunt
Shape up your act and join the rest of us
We all suck and so do you
That is why I love you so
Applause to you
You were dressed so nicely
The table was made
And the glasses were filled
I was your only guest that night
Mr Green held a speech
he was the host
Used those social skills
that have taken him far in profession life
as a successful business man
When I see you all tomorrow
And your expressions return to code
I know what secret hides
Behind those cryptic faces of yours
Sophisticated woman, Lady yellow
Teaching art and pottery
Conversed courteous but stepmotherly
With Blackie the eternal boy
Blackie went on endlessly
About his record collection and his horse
While Silent Blue – stronghanded as two
Drank in the friendly air
When I see you all tomorrow
And your expressions return to code
I know what secret hides
Behind those cryptic faces of yours
And baby Red just shook her head
Put on her biggest smile
A cocky girl, had travelled the world
Several thousand miles
We had the most enjoyable night
We had ourselves a blast
We talked and sang and drank ‘til dawn
Silent Blue slept in his clothes
When I see you all tomorrow
And your expressions return to code
I know what secret hides
Behind those cryptic faces of yours
Though the ones I see tomorrow
Are the versions I like the best
I feel sad with the fact
That I will never meet the other you again
Must be struggling hard with the Middle East
…or maybe Kelly Young, kidnapped two years ago
forced to live her life in constant pain
Is the boss in charge? I really do not know
But if she is I’m sure she doesn’t like selfishness
So how does it feel? When you fire a prayer
‘bout helping out your kids pass some tests in school
But if it’s all unfair and the world is wrong
Where the rules of life are written in code
You’ll need access to talk to God and education in belief
I turn my back and walk away and burn in hell forever
‘cause if my boss is a real bitch I couldn’t stand to stay in heaven anyway
I think I just died
Don’t know where and how
But I ended up in a pretty cool resort
Full of rich and poor
Handled the truth with care
And didn’t bother God with nonsense all the time
I do belong in the hands of the new society
They took away my access to myself
A spirit forced to dwell, a vicious kind of help
Within my heart a bird still sings
Her voice can comfort me from dead eyes and frozen grins
They’ve built a wall between my life and me
They couldn’t approve my different personality
Inside my head I live another life though
Football matches, weddings, birthdays, live-shows
Casual conversations in the street
Where I’m regarded as a stand-up fellow
People are listening to what I’m saying
Celebrate our youth all through the nights
She took my hand and said I’d made her happy
Under the stars we had our future mapped out
A daughter and a son – a dream complete
I share most people’s favourite happy ending
I can’t explain how much it hurts me darling
That neither you or my made up world exist
Excluded, shut off, wrapped up in screams
Inventing secrets trying to keep my identity intact
The pain inside is important to maintain
‘cause if it goes it means I’ve finally gone insane
Up in the attic there’s a peaceful hide-out
Sometimes I sneak up there for mental cry-outs
Try to fight the suicidal part of myself
Under the roof out through a broken window
There’s a view both cruel and oh so beautiful
I smell my hometown from the other side of the fence
The school I went to as a young boy
The streets I ran along as a young man
They took it all away in 1938 my love
From beneath I feel the building breathing
These corridors will never ever free me
And the bird within my heart will fly away
Say the sun is black
Then maybe I’ll take it back
But the fact is that you mess too much
And you hurt yourself
Not supposed to dwell that early dwell
Send me flowers feed my dogs
Save my very day
Then leave out what I just said
Still your life is passing by
Nothing have you done
Face the mirror and listen son
You´re such a labrador man
They told me that the wind got ill
They said the sun is black
Still pointless taking it back
‘cause the fact is that I’ve messed too much
And I’ve hurt my soul
Saved by an answered call
Fake-kneel before I fall
Clench my weapon waste you all
Glad you fear them not
Sit down with me and sum the war
Light the fuse
Wanna steal their crowns
Wanna steal their crowns
Applaude me when I wake up loud
‘cause how do you know
How do you know for sure
Thanks is just a phrase
Thanks is just a phrase
It helps you through the silent race
Slows the pace
Wanna win their game
Wanna win their game
And let’s do that this very day
‘cause how do you know
How do you know for sure
I’ve never felt fixed and safe
I owe a God that I won’t pay
Can’t force my instincts to behave
And I am not impressed
It’s a human privilege
It’s a human privilege
That we’re all still true primitives
I’m glad about it
Still the leaves are falling
Still the leaves are falling
Don’t live your life against your heart
‘cause how do you know
How do you know for sure
They have since birth blindfolded eyes
Dead eyes
I use my charm to reach their sky
Can’t force my instinct to behave
And I am not impressed
Shaped up for a new day
Out there seeking easy ways
That tomorrow will repay
Checking vibes among the tribes
Of successful people who’ve been there
Fake a smile and tell a lie
Selling pride when befriending the winner
You coward I’ve totally lost faith in you
In spite of the days when we shared the sun
You’re fighting yourself and you don’t know it
So I’m closing the book
The deed is done
Turning your back on the loser
While giving your friends brown-nose bruises
Sucking that stick they gave you
And making those licks they crave of you
See I think there’s something odd with you
I’m proud to be your enemy
Because a friend in demand put a clock in my hand
The pointer was broke I couldn’t read it though I tried
Flying the flags for president of men in no mans land
Raising the glass with a new best friend
Paid to take your stand
Take down your flag and stop the pretence
Bow down and greet the end
Plenty are the roads of life
But your hitchiking revalues somewhere
Did I hear that laughter of yours
Please shut up and put yourself into elsewhere
Hope you’ll die alone in the shadows
While all your buddies are fed up
Lucky as swine-operators
Well one of these days I’ll come back to take you down
Flying the flags…
But maybe one day we’ll talk about it
Finding agreement saves the run
I think you should know that I’m still waiting
Meanwhile the earth keeps spinning on
An obvious wonder what tomorrow holds
A wait for disaster is a soul-kill in vain
Go smell the flowers
joy keeps you sane
Figured now is all the time
Bound to make our moments prime
Locked position on the ride
Past and future are our guides
Life’s like vinyl and memories are songs
Your present’s the pick-up while life’s turning on
What destiny brings you depends on the run
The needle will tell you but tells you just once
Figured…
And I wondered ‘bout myself and the universe
And what it’s all about and suddenly I felt a bit bored
And also a bit depressed, never meant to think like this
So I put my feet back down on earth
Forgot all ‘bout what my life’s worth
And entered a record-store
And figured out that you feel so much louder
In the company of a Black Sabbath album
Figured…
Pippin proud in drivers seat
Still driving license out of reach
Why is it never hard to tell where not to be present
Freddy drove the ambulance
Sweaty brow and trembling hands
Early morning sirens wail, point out that destiny just failed
Why is it never…
The sirens screamed and pleaded God for a helping hand
Lights of emergency spread from the ambulance
Descending from the sky the angels tore the roof of
Collected the souls and left the land
Handled emergency with skill
Freddy befriended speed
No time to kill!
Still Greg and Pippin are undoubtledy dead
Just took off on wings of lead
Why is it never…
Dreams failed and we got ourselves to blame
Just let them shut us out on purpose or not
Never saw what skills we’ve got
Leaning on each other counting stars
Hush hush the outside world’s too harsh
So insecure and scared of queens and of kings
That’s when the taste of water stings
Well Antonovsky may be right?
To see our context ease our fight
Still boys and girls it’s soon ten thousand o’ clock
And our days are counted while we’re stuck
Now pack your bags and walk that mile
Collect my tears and wave goodbye
Now baby raise your head and flap your new wings
And I pray for you, you’ll make it through
And the taste of river wild no longer stings
And you read about the hags
I’ve met them all at sunsets where we traded swag
Was it a thousand years ago?
Stanton took his shoes off, smiled and lit his pipe
Then felt ill, a sort of reminder struck him – right?
Well am I right?
Or did life just change it’s course?
Did you hear that rumbling roar?
“It’s time to burst your heartbeat, with reverence I great you!”
out of light this voice of a nightingale…
“I am the dead end toller and your life’s kind of over”
…put out the lines like rails to destiny
Stanton pursed his mouth now, sighed and knit his brow
Tried to out stare the angel with a bitter and sad kind of frown
Begged so hard for a delay
Gimme please a few more days?
“Just let me please remind you that it was me who found you
caught beneath a thousand years”
“I am the one that fetches the candle and the matches
and I light or I blow out”
But what about the flowers, the sun, the golden hours?
“You’ll get them back in another life”
“Just close your eyes and hum your favourite song I reckon your deeds
and send you tides away”
And the sidewalk moans about your steps
Fate escaped your hands
Missed the silent slam
Soiled by shadows of the brave
Slowmotionized by northern freeze
In an endless line for a one-way breeze
Punished silent heart, tear your dreams apart
Soiled by shadows of the brave
Where do you go from now?
Gotta score somehow
Soiled by shadows of the brave
Yeah, accept it all now
Ouch, you’re locked in and boredom-bound
Deserves no cred when others make your bed
Wake up, put on your head
Turn your back on worries
A fool neglects tomorrow
Banned from walking into life again
When the sun is not your friend
My friend
Found your place in being feared
The art of violence saves your tears
Better hit and run
Ruin all the fun
Soiled by shadows of the brave
The obstacle’s yours to stride
But you’re too scared of living life
And soiled by shadows of the brave
Best at it
Think that’s a skill
Proud finger pointing
Surprised when I follow my will
Of course there’s a secret deep within you
Such weird prevention of self release
Laugh or die
Professional complainer, a no-saying addict, that’s you
Inventing a mess out of everything we or they do
There’s a complaint in all that you say
Please realize there are other ways
Life’s not a problem for you to solve
No-one’s impressed by your stunning obsession
Go home
There’s no one to blame for you being left there to live life alone
The sun is now tired and will shine no more
Please let the armed clown to you cry
Laugh or die
Not learning how to welcome change
Don’t like the furniture in your cell
You’re farting as you’re worshipping yourself
Trying hard not to try hard impresses not
Back off or simply learn the dance steps
Look at yourself and cry
Gimme that hard look you clever dog
Acting pretentious, wrap yourself in fogless fog
Stay in the corner or take the chance
Talk to me and greet a kind romance
But there is nothing that you say or do
That makes me think that you can learn the dancesteps
Look at yourself and cry
You should cry
Give up the thrill, I’ve done what I could
Washed clean from worries
Hoping they stay caught in the trees, then my mind is saved
Poor skinny girl, unheard in the world
Can’t reach to call for talks with the Lord
Unprivilegded voice left without choice
Access to God’s ears ain’t general at all
I travel by sight, don’t fear any heights
Talk to the dog while the sun leaves at night
Whisper shut up as loud as I can
Try and make a future need out of myself
You know living life by choice is pretty unusual
Try not to feel the fall
But drama in life toughens you up and makes you stronger
Catch that train, don’t hide
And then when you do – do it true
Come shake my tree and pick up the fruits
Put yourself back
Erase and collect
Ignore soft attacks from those who correct
Cockatoo
It’s morning and you speak to the sun
Talk bad ‘bout the moon
Love life again
Touched by a friend
Forgetting each day’s a step closer to the end
Hiding in the world from the world
When your feelings and emotions are just stirred
You should trim the wings of your bird
Put life into all words of yours unheard
The reminders they all queue in your mind
Which you hate but which you all once did assign
Your heart’s too shy to let your soul take its place
A fixed excuse is written on your face
But as long as your versions of the truth are true
The world can’t help but fall in love with you
A fake identity of dust and bones
When making friends as an investment
You put a value on my soul
My face got a hole from the laughter you stole
Trying to set sail and leave the coast
To meet me lost out there you would love the most
But it’s hard to reach your ocean when you wrecked my submarine
Oldest teen just can’t leave the scene
Find the tune within or you will die
The never ending hunt for rainbow’s gold
And the silent flower of yours just wont unfold
Yet there’s a point in gripping life and
Holding on hard to soul and faith
Live each day before being safe
You’re on a universal hitchike
Can’t find the taxi you’re travelling in
Save your win
Stop feeding the king
Anti-salvation
End of the game
Hang up the phone give up the throne
Maggots will feast on my bones
Lower than down
Embrace the ground
Hoping not to be found
They turn their backs all at the same time
And down in falls raining stones
Over and out
Now out of doubt
Just wanna leave now
I will shut my mouth
Can’t see the light
The life’s delight
Can’t see it’s right at all
Fed up with life the social rites
Try telling fate I don’t wanna be here
Ignored, betrayed and nothing gained
And down in falls raining stones
Now take my bleed
Feed you with screams
Burst by my hatred
I sketch your dreams
Pick up the phone give up the throne
Take that unbearable load
A fever unknown, about to sow
Facing the end of darlings
Soiled by filth, in need of a shower
And down in falls raining stones
They turn their heads all at the same time
And down in falls raining stones